Some more ranting
So... halfway through fasting month, it's been a lonely bulan puasa. And looks like it'll the same thing come Raya.
Well, you don't need friends to do your ibadah. Of course. But Islam ain't anti-social either.
I just played a game with a hero with a sheltered upbringing who is just utterly clueless about the harsh truth of the real world. I may not be as bad as him but, drawing similarities between me and him, I just have this feeling that perhaps people have that extra edge with their social skills in life to endure things like doing paperwork, managing their time or even landing a job.
What do I think about the whole thing? I still think it is learnable to be social but it's an expensive thing. You have to constantly put your time and money in, just like a car needing fuel and maintenance to move. I don't have that much money anymore. So I just can't do it anymore.
"It's only a phone call away" - but it's more than that. I'm a guy who always think of myself as a liability to others, people want to get rid of me. They always rain check on me whenever I try to do something with them, and you already know how I hate rejection. I'd feel embarrassed to no end.
The only thing that kept me going with them was my riches and when that's gone, I have nothing else to offer. We are just too different. I don't watch movies or shit, just living in my little 2D world and the universe inside. ...okay fine there is football but I don't like those fans who diss on other clubs and their supporters.
"Celebrate our differences" is a load of bull. If it was true there would be no genocide or racism.
Well, you don't need friends to do your ibadah. Of course. But Islam ain't anti-social either.
I just played a game with a hero with a sheltered upbringing who is just utterly clueless about the harsh truth of the real world. I may not be as bad as him but, drawing similarities between me and him, I just have this feeling that perhaps people have that extra edge with their social skills in life to endure things like doing paperwork, managing their time or even landing a job.
What do I think about the whole thing? I still think it is learnable to be social but it's an expensive thing. You have to constantly put your time and money in, just like a car needing fuel and maintenance to move. I don't have that much money anymore. So I just can't do it anymore.
"It's only a phone call away" - but it's more than that. I'm a guy who always think of myself as a liability to others, people want to get rid of me. They always rain check on me whenever I try to do something with them, and you already know how I hate rejection. I'd feel embarrassed to no end.
The only thing that kept me going with them was my riches and when that's gone, I have nothing else to offer. We are just too different. I don't watch movies or shit, just living in my little 2D world and the universe inside. ...okay fine there is football but I don't like those fans who diss on other clubs and their supporters.
"Celebrate our differences" is a load of bull. If it was true there would be no genocide or racism.
