Can she forgive?
All this while, from months after I left PJN until now, there's an "unfinished business" if you wanna call it, that still lingers in my mind.
I'm not gonna name names, unlike foolish old me in the past (on this blog even), and those who can guess who it is, rarely if ever read my local blog.
I was one keystroke away from talking to her but I haven't because, we hated(?) each other so much back then that I still feel a bit uneasy reading her name. She's been really active on FB lately, but I have her MSN all this time, not even blocked.
It was hard to convince my old PJN pals that I've changed from a (total) lunatic and had gotten more mature while I attended uni. Although I am still at a loss on how to be social.
But fortunately most of the good people kinda took me back in their stride... because they've met me ever since. Unlike her she's just that faraway. And it still feels so awkward. ...What if she is taken? You see I've tried to wash away everything about my childhood friend (not the girl in question) after she (finally) got engaged. I'm just that scared of taken girls because of the snappy men. I think I've talked long and hard about this already.
I'm laughing at the prospects of our '97 intake PJN Science Class reunion, because several names won't be there no matter how much you beg or bribe them (maybe some won't get invitations!). We were all dysfunctional in some ways, and it shows. But me and her was probably the most memorable - though I can say it's over now on my side. The best thing is that we speak the same 3 languages, I'm kinda dying to talk to her.
The only thing preventing me is that... will she ever forgive me for all the mad 5 years being the enemy in the blanket.
I'm not gonna name names, unlike foolish old me in the past (on this blog even), and those who can guess who it is, rarely if ever read my local blog.
I was one keystroke away from talking to her but I haven't because, we hated(?) each other so much back then that I still feel a bit uneasy reading her name. She's been really active on FB lately, but I have her MSN all this time, not even blocked.
It was hard to convince my old PJN pals that I've changed from a (total) lunatic and had gotten more mature while I attended uni. Although I am still at a loss on how to be social.
But fortunately most of the good people kinda took me back in their stride... because they've met me ever since. Unlike her she's just that faraway. And it still feels so awkward. ...What if she is taken? You see I've tried to wash away everything about my childhood friend (not the girl in question) after she (finally) got engaged. I'm just that scared of taken girls because of the snappy men. I think I've talked long and hard about this already.
I'm laughing at the prospects of our '97 intake PJN Science Class reunion, because several names won't be there no matter how much you beg or bribe them (maybe some won't get invitations!). We were all dysfunctional in some ways, and it shows. But me and her was probably the most memorable - though I can say it's over now on my side. The best thing is that we speak the same 3 languages, I'm kinda dying to talk to her.
The only thing preventing me is that... will she ever forgive me for all the mad 5 years being the enemy in the blanket.
