On the eve of Raya, He showed the flipside to me

So like every other year, I had to clean the house up for Raya, when I stumbled across one of my most treasured things I still have from my Form 6 years: The Pre-U Science 1/2 books.

Bohare kept it for awhile till I phoned him one day and asked for it; he still keeps it in view of returning it to me someday. But after I got it back, it was lying around and then went missing at home till today.

Turning the cover, you'll find the "guestbook", a page dedicated to have people who read the whole thing to leave a message. Even to this day, I'm still astonished at how many signatures I got - even the juniors signed it, those I don't even know their names of - and the really really nice messages they've written. To think, I was a total, uninterested, weirdo in Form 6, to think my handwriting was barely readable, to think there were so many vague references to anime and also tongue-in-cheek Japanese slotted here and there, people still enjoyed my writing, they loved it when I wrote about them in my own fictional way, they wanted more and I kept on writing till the two years have gone by.

The guestbook never fails to bring me to tears. I suddenly feel so wanted - the mindset that my Form 6 life was a waste had changed. I seriously thought nobody gave me a damn. I've only evoked bad memories of that period, I guess that's why these books are for - they'd remind me of the better times that I would've forgotten had they not been written or chronicled.

And now, probably, just probably, I have this new urge to come to their houses this Raya.

With these books in hand.