Another reason to feel down about

So tonight, for how many times I dunno, my sis and bro are both gonna go out for a movie with their friends and socialise again.

I wonder why I feel so pathetic - I mean, I don't hate it but I'm also not particularly fond of nights out with friends - I mean, my feet's not that itchy. And furthermore I don't even watch movies. So why am I not content?

I dunno where my mom stands on this. My mom, like many soccer moms, doesn't like their kids to go out all night - but at the same time she's going like, "why don't you go out and drive and take your friends along or something" and all. I begin to wonder if my claims of being raised antisocial are really valid, since my bro and sis are really social people. Or perhaps I was raised differently.

Now 23 and having absolutely no real physical friends, having stayed away from the ones I had for too long, and not wanting to be too close to the ones I have now, I can see my future social life, as well as everything else about my future, hitting a brick wall.