My outing with Safoora

On Wednesday I was, like, tentatively asking her out on this day. So we agreed, because I don't wanna wait any longer after a decade of not seeing each other.

This morning, I woke up at 9 and got prepared, only to get a message by her saying I should reschedule to around 4 because she has "other commitments", mmhm. Wasted the day playing FIFA Manager 08.

She came at 4:30. My mom woke up, but I was really surprised that she didn't take any interest to meet her - this is the girl that her son is crazy over for almost the whole of his life, lol. And at least they have talked to each other before anyway.

She's so pretty... She's really the complete package of a person - even from humble belongings, she's a working woman from the age of 22, fashionable, has numerous links to powerful people in Brunei and aspires to become one of the most successful women in the world. Her boyfriend's working in BSP - every Bruneian girl's dream (i.e. loaded bf).

We actually didn't know where to go so I said the heck, let's just go to Gadong, and we ended up at the Mall (where else... ~_~) along the way we talked about our goings-on, especially of what she's up to.

We ate at Fusion. But, oh gawd. I should have known better. She's so picky with food, she actually ate 20% of what she ordered... and that was because of my own provocation (you know me, I'll never allow myself to eat alone when with someone). Anyway, since she's the daughter of a fisherman, she only eats fish 90% of the time.

Then it became a motivational talk. Ah, for once, it's given by someone I admire and respect. Actually she'd been a quite negative person before she went to Curtin AU. This strengthens my belief that you'll improve your behaviour and manner and outlook in life if you go overseas and broaden your horizon. Remember what I told you ah, people who are now abroad.

But yea, she saw that I am able to analyse my psychological weaknesses, but yet I am resistant to these changes, due to peer pressure and loss of self-belief. She asks me to look at the mirror to start liking myself. I'll try. Oh no, does this mean I need to look at some fat ugly person more
now, and actually start to _like_ him? Gimme a break. Get away from my sight you ugly person you!

...I was just joking. She's a very good counselor, just proof of her success (she told me each person have their own definition of success, and you mustn't follow theirs - follow yours instead!) as a working woman with money in the bank and dozens of suitors waiting (including yours truly).

She told me about her concerns that her little sisters aren't doing as well as her. That's ridiculous, they should really see Safoora as a role model to them. Come on girls, don't let her be the only breadwinner!

By then it was already 8PM so I said that's enough for today and paid the consultation fee. On the way home, I told her about my family (something I thought she knew...) and asked about our ex-classmates' whereabouts. Apparently I don't know as much as her, shame on me.

Well, that's that. No sentiments of love or something (although when we were talking about Siti Afidah I said "after you, she's the one I cared about most") but it's so relieving that I've seen her after a decade of wait. Yeah, I guess next week she'll be going with another of her male friends (with her bf's endorsement, similar to the one for me) ... zzzzzz noooo I wanna be the special one, we were the real couple then at SR Lumut.... asdfdafdsgsffsga nooooooo T_____T